Well Matthew, the end of child support payments on/for you has arrived. Unfortunately the ending of child support still doesn't fix the larger issues. I suppose in time that you might find someway to figure things out for yourself. To begin the heeling process will be tough for you and I wish I could be of help. I don't see that happening, yet that wish will never go away.
The pain will never go away for me. The pain of not having you in my life, the pain of not knowing the truth about paternity, the pain of all the lost years with you, the pain of the unknown suffering that you have endured and not having been there to help. I could name numerous reasons for my pain but it would lead to what would sound like I was bashing your mother and that is not why I started this blog.
I would often wish for things to have turned out different but the handwriting was on the wall. I hope that one day you and your sister will search and read through the court documents and the documents that I have and realize that I did everything humanly possible to remain in your lives and to be a positive influence in your lives.
I would pray and ask that you and your sister try to understand the reasons things happened as they did. Don't have hate in your hearts for anyone to include your mother and her family.
I think about you two all the time,
Me
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